It’s early Sunday afternoon and I’m going to start closing out my stay here in the Bay. My time overall has been interesting; I spent the last couple of days alone, which has provided me with a lot of thinking time. Thinking time is good, and part of going on this vacation was so I could get away from everything and everyone. I didn’t email from my phone much, nor did I take many calls. Each of the evenings I’ve been asleep no later than 1 AM, which is way earlier than usual, and has allowed me to catch up on the hours that I’ve been lacking. Last night I had a dream about my ex-boyfriend, friends, and where I’m currently at with things in my life and though I’m mostly content, I woke up really under the weather, feeling quite empty. I’m very much looking forward to returning to my things: my friends, my apartment, my family, my job. But, I’m sure as soon as I’m back in the routine I’ll wish to be back here. It’s a silly balance. I think that once I begin to understand how this city works I’ll begin to feel comfortable, so it’s only in time and I’ll have to be patient. This trip was exactly what I needed in order to prepare myself emotionally for such a giant leap. I think it’s all good.
See you soon So. Cal.