Monthly Archive for July, 2008

A With Living

I’ve been really on the go as of late; I try to stay up as long as pos­si­ble in order to do the things I enjoy as much as I can. The new day comes far too quickly some­times, and it seems like I am always here at my office desk. I’ve began to fancy brief cat naps on the couch in the evening, then a “wake me up” bike ride to get my blood flow­ing again for the next por­tion of my night. A sleep­ing pat­tern like this prob­a­bly isn’t the best, but it’s work­ing for the time being and I am yet to really feel any worst for that mat­ter. But I’m very much so look­ing for­ward to next week as I’ve booked a vaca­tion — Thurs­day through Sun­day, to be exact. I’m fly­ing into Oak­land, and will be stay­ing in San Fran­cisco for the week­end, where I’ll hunt for work and hous­ing, and study the hills, in order to pre­pare myself men­tally for the chal­lenge of brak­ing down those suck­ers on bike, once I become a resident.

Have I even men­tioned that?

A cou­ple of weeks ago, I let the com­pany know I’m leav­ing. I’m going to San Fran­cisco, and I’m start­ing over. Right now it looks like Octo­ber is the date that I’m shoot­ing for, but before I go I have promised myself that things will be cleaned up at work before my depar­ture, which may take a lit­tle longer (but hope­fully I can square it all away before September’s end). I’m not scared; it actu­ally gives me a huge rush think­ing about the pos­si­bil­i­ties that lovely city has to offer — it will be an expe­ri­ence for sure. I have also made the deci­sion to fin­ish my school­ing, too. It just has to be done and I’m sick of lag­ging on tak­ing that damned Math course. Recently I came to the con­clu­sion that I’m over the lack of progress that sur­rounds me. I con­stantly feel like I’m the only one mov­ing for­ward, which is depress­ing, I know. And, I hate even think­ing things like that, but it’s all I’ve got to believe based on what I’ve come to see so often from every­thing around. 

Things are hard, but really they’re not that hard when I stop and actu­ally think about it. I’m keep­ing that PMA.