From the Inland Empire

My father just got back from Egypt and Israel. The tour de Old Tes­ta­ment prophets. The night he got home he sat us down in the din­ing room to have a look at some pho­tos, snap­shots, from the trip. Among them were pic­tures of, yes, olive presses and old Hebrew men, there were guards and scenic shots of Aaron’s (sup­posed) tomb. He sat on a camel with a stu­dent and took “art” pic­tures of my brother lying on the ground as if dead. But lit­tered among these sometimes-encouraging-horrifically-depressing-comments pho­tographs were pic­tures of cats. At least ten of them.

It is true, my father loves cats.

On his spir­i­tual pil­grim­age, accom­pa­nied by peo­ple buy­ing dia­monds and thou­sands of sou­venirs, he took pic­tures of cats and a few other small ani­mals.
And this is how I know that Von­negut was right.

We Do, Doo­d­ley Do,
Doo­d­ley Do, Doo­d­ley Do,
What We Must,
Mud­dley Must,
Mud­dley Must,
Mud­dley Must,
Until We Bust,
Bod­ily Bust,
Bod­ily Bust,
Bod­ily Bust.

–Bokonon

“Father, we are here to help each other get through this thing. What­ever it is,” these are the wise words of Vonnegut’s son.

I am liv­ing in the Inland Empire. Sur­rounded by vacant houses. For Sale by Bank. I wake up late because there is noth­ing to wel­come me but hol­low searches for wed­ding dresses and jobs. I search and search online for some­thing. And have dreams about being near peo­ple I love. There is no blood here. It is like the Pil­lar of Fire. With­out the inno­cence.

But there is my parent’s cat. And pink lady apples. Oh zinc, you do drop your lean and mas­sive body into the cor­ners beside my body so well! I do love you, old chap.

And as my mother exclaimed tonight with utmost fer­vor and thrill (in regards to apply­ing for a posi­tion at a tutor agency),

“I think you should just put on a dress and march in there!”

And so we shall.

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